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Try Not To Destroy Me

That moment. It took a long road to get to it. A road that started months ago. I’ve been to almost every show they’ve played this year. The album has been on repeat. I’ve sang along to all the songs they’ve already played. I’ve danced, I’ve screamed, I’ve earned that moment. The song starts, the last song of the night; my song.

I let all of my senses welcome this song. I hear it, of course, and I see him, just him. I smell the booze, the sweat, the enticement, the excitement. I can taste the words, dancing on my on tongue, sweet like sugar. I can feel the music on my skin, mingling with the goose bumps.

Nothing matters right now. No one is there but me and him and that song. Every thing and everyone just melts away. All the tension, the apprehension, the anxiety; disappeared. It’s just us. I almost cry from the sensory overload, but instead I soak it all in. That moment, my moment.

I feed on those words. I thrive on that melody. It’s so intimate between us right then, I feel so vulnerable, so exposed. I’m aware it’s one sided, but it doesn’t matter. It’s just me, him, and that song that matters. Everyone else can go ahead and look in my windows, peek at my soul.

It feels like hours, but hours that go by too quickly. I knew it wouldn’t last forever, but it ends too soon. With the final word, the final chord, that intimacy lost, that connection broken, the moment passes. I come back to Earth, back to myself, and the party has just begun.

Night number two, and I’m surrounded by good friends, good conversation. I feel like hell, I look like shit, but we’re there nonetheless. The anticipation builds, but my moment doesn’t come. I get the tingles, but it’s not the same. It’s not the first time when it’s the second time. But that’s okay, I’ve still got my moment from the night before.

Ryan Shuck from Julien-K (Show #2 @ The Observatory in Costa Mesa, CA) – Image Courtesy of Beephobia

Just planning the trip gave me thrills. I knew I couldn’t afford it, neither of us could, but that’s never stopped me before. When it comes to them, very little can stop me. I’m drawn, I’m hooked. I knew I’d suffer when I got back. Physically, financially. I was aware, and I still put all my chips on the table.

Planning, paying, packing. All of it put the butterflies in my stomach. I’ve seen them tons of times. I’ve traveled thousands of miles to listen to the same songs I listen to at home. None of that mattered, I was going. I was ready for the experience. I was willing to pay whatever price they were asking. It was all worth it, tenfold because my best friend was by my side, making it all possible.

5 hour drive to spend less than 24 hours in Vegas. Turn right back around and head 5 hours straight to Orange County for show number 2. We were crazy. I don’t regret it.

2 shows, 2 nights, hundreds of miles, and one fuck of a hangover later… I’m still a little drunk on that moment. Thank you.

Myself and Ryan Shuck- Image courtesy of Scarlett Lee


Yes, you are here with me. Always.

Now that I’ve had time to recover from Saturday night, and fight off the plague that hit me on Monday morning, I’m ready to sit down and put my thoughts into words on the new Julien-K album “We’re Here With You”!

On release day (January 23rd, 2012), we watched it climb up the Electronic Albums chart on iTunes, and it peaked at #2!!! And listening to this album over and over again, I can’t quite figure out why it didn’t hit #1. It’s a truly amazing album. (Click the song title to preview songs on, and to buy them a la carte. Links to purchase the album can be found at the bottom.)

1- We’re Here With You ~ I LOVE the guitars on this track, it’s got a raw, honest tone that I wasn’t expecting. The beat gets you from second one, and I can’t stop moving when this song is on. It’s not a dance-y track, but definitely one you can groove to. The lyrics are amazing; vague without too much mystery. Makes me feel like this song was written about me, and I’m sure others can find that connection to this track. 5/5

2- Surrounded By Cowards ~ This was the track I was the most excited for. Hearing the snippets while they were recording it, I had pegged this as an early fave. The guys did NOT disappoint. While I’m not SUPER excited about the high notes Ryan’s hitting in this track, it doesn’t ruin the song, or take away from it at all. The beat (and hook!) is absolutely addictive and catchy. Definitely a “stuck-in-your-head-all-day” song. 5/5

3- Cruel Daze Of Summer ~ Another highly anticipated track that was worth all the hype. The melody on this song is just so… DEEP and resonating, I couldn’t help but fall in love with it. Great beat that flows well throughout, hooks you early and keeps you going, however the song runs a WEE bit longer than it probably should. This song is electronic music at it’s finest! 5/5

4- Breakfast in Berlin- Free Download! ~ This is the first single off of “We’re Here With You”. I have to say, NOT my favorite track. The beat is gritty and dirty (in a good way), but the vocals just don’t… click with me. And all the “ah ah”‘s. Too many “ah ah”‘s. Good song, just not great, and not in my top 10. 3/5 (Authors Note: The free download is from the band themselves, so say thank you!)

5- Palm Springs Reset ~ Another favorite off the album. My personal favorites are always the ones that are raw emotion with a great beat. This track is really what these guys do best, if you ask me. The drum track on this is really strong and the lyrics are so pretty. Ryan’s vocals are so soothing and it’s the perfect “chill out” song, almost… cleansing. Very Depeche Mode-esque! 5/5

6- Colorcast ~ Pure electro heaven! I love the beat and the overall feel of this song. The vocals are a bit… higher than I like, but it DOES suit the song well. This is a perfect club/dance song. In fact, I’m dancing a little right now as I write this as I listen along. 4/5

7- Close Continuance ~ Definitely the darker tune on the record, and NOT a favorite of mine. The beat is good, I just dislike the vocals, too “talky” for my liking in the beginning. Once we get into the hook, I’m down to listen, but still a little too high for me. I’ll most likely skip over this one when I’m listening to the whole album. 2/5

8- Nights Of Future Past ~ This track makes up for “Close Continuance”! It’s a darker, deeper song, and I love the way it was put together. Ryan’s vocals are super smooth, and the melody gets me. I LOVE the hook on this song! This song reminds me of Orgy… amplified by 10, with more awesome on top… if any of that makes sense. 5/5

9- Flashpoint Riot ~ I didn’t THINK I would like this song, but I was surprised when I heard it all the way through. I do like this song. Heavy guitars, saturated with electro beats, the perfect fusion of rock and electronica. This is the song that proves the guys know what they are doing, and they know how to pave the way. The vocals are a little too… processed for me, but it suits the song well. Another great club/dance song, and I can see this being played live at a club like Voyeur in San Diego (hint! hint! LED Wall! Hint!). 4/5

10- I’ll Try Not To Destroy You ~ Another song I was really anticipating. While I don’t typically like Ryan’s high notes, this song is the exception. Love love love the beat, the flow, and the melody in this song. This song is pure seduction, beginning to end. Easily my favorite track on the entire album, and I pegged it as a favorite as soon as I heard the whole CD. The vocals in this track are absolutely FLAWLESS, and all the elements they used to compose it, fit like a puzzle. Everything marries so well here, if a song can be absolute perfection, this is the one. 5/5

I had such high hopes for this album, being such a long time fan. And with 100% honesty, this album does not disappoint at all. The evolution of this band is so organic and smooth. An overall lighter tone than Death to Analog, it really suits the band, and it suits me just fine. I LOVE the guitars used throughout the whole album, and the way they’re soaked with the electro elements, sounds like it SHOULDN’T work, but it does. All in all, job well done. Now get to work on #3! 🙂

Click the image below to buy the album, which I HIGHLY suggest you do!


Killing Fields

When the Julien-K track list for Death to Analog came out, us core fans noticed two well discussed songs were missing. Killing Fields and Everyone Knows. When the boys released DTA in Europe, they decided to add Killing Fields, leaving us US fans in the dust, sadly.

However, because we are in the age of the internet, a lot of us core fans got our grubby little fingers on the track, myself included. While I won’t give the song away here (I don’t wanna get sued and/or yelled at), I will share with you the lyrics, as well as link you to a site where an affiliate of the band is giving away a FREE (unfinished) remix! Enjoy!

Killing Fields
I hit the ground running
With nowhere to go
The system is blind and flawed
Don’t tell me to let go
There’s a mob at the corner
Can’t they just let the man go?
Like a wild fire it spreads
Wherever the wind blows

Is anyone out there? (Tap on the window)
The person with answers (has called in a no show)
I know of a problem, (I’m taking my chances)
I’m dancing with ego, (caught in the branches)
Is anyone out there (with the same dream?)
The same broken record (or so it seems)
I’m stuck at the crossroads (with no end in sight)
And I don’t think that I’ll ever be the same

Born into nothing
I just can’t take anymore
It’s something I can’t explain
I just want more
For blood or for money
So far from home
Did God grow tired of us?
I just have to know

In the killing fields where no dreams go
In the killing fields where dreams grow cold

In the killing fields

Claim your FREE download of the Brandon Belsky Killing Fields remix here from

I’ll shut up now, I have a song to listen to on repeat!



I have mulled and debated and searched and contemplated and lots of other reletively big words for today’s Photo Friday….

…and folks, I got nuthin. A whole lot of it.

So, instead of something interesting, or educating, or even remotely amusing… just stare at this sexy beast for a bit. I’m gonna go shut up, since I’ve got nothing particularly important to say.

No idea who took this, but it's my FAV! Credit to... the people right here ^^


Oh noes, this again?

I know I blogged about my boys Julien-K just a few weeks ago, but I’m gonna do it again. Get used to it, because as I’ve mentioned before, these boys own my soul and I slave work for them, for free.

I’ll make this quick and painless, I promise.

So here goes! My boys are on tour! Weee! This is pretty much the only payment I get from these boys, and I consider myself PAID. IN. FULL. after every show I see because they are UHHHH-MAAAAY-ZIIIIIIINGAH!

Click that nice little picture up there and check out the tour dates and ticket info on Julien-K’s MySpace page. (As far as I’m aware, tickets are available through TicketWhore, I mean Ticketmaster as well as available at the venue box offices.)

Tickets are reasonable (when not using TicketWhore of course), and you’re in for a great effin show!

P.S. If anyone is going to the June 30th West Springfield, VA show, hit me up and we could meet up! It’s possible that I will be the only girl there wearing a neck brace. And yes, it will be stylin’.

P.S.S. Yes, I friggen hate TicketWhore with a passion. You end up raped in fees! Oy, I had a lot more typed here before I realized… this is a whole ‘nuther blog… so TO BE CONTINUED…

…..I know ya’ll want me to shut up now….

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